When I think about how many times over the last month I have sat down and stared at this blank screen, it brings a sense of sadness. Just when I thought the struggle of body image was over and I had overcome the issues, it seemed to rear its ugly head. I stepped away from the mat as well. While it hasn’t been too long, it seems a lifetime ago that I found myself in practice. Body image is not an easy affliction. There are good days and bad days; there are days when medicating with food seem like the only answer. Just when I think I am back where I started the answer appears.
When the student is ready, the teacher will appear ~ Buddhist Proverb
I received an email a few weeks ago about a workshop at my favorite yoga studio. This workshop is on Radical Forgiveness. In true nature, I moved on and ignored the email. After all, what did I need to forgive these days? My spiritual practice wasn’t suffering, I was at peace in so many other ways, or was I? The Universe has a funny way of showing us what we need, if we just allow it. Emails were showing up in my inbox from this yoga studio, more about Radical Forgiveness and the workshop. Fine, I’ll go. Maybe there are some things that will come up that I can work on and practice forgiveness.
Around the same time that I was thinking I had nothing to forgive, I found myself watching a movie about a blogger. She blogged daily, created a project, set a goal and did it. Even when she had nothing to say, she wrote. In this movie, a true story, she began to receive offer after offer from publishing houses, why was I not receiving the same. I sent out a text to my tribe of women telling them my sad story of how I was not successful like the woman in the movie and then BOOM….They called me out. They said what needed to be said, they told me to get back to yoga and write about it. Really? That simple?
A Light Bulb Moment
It really is that simple when I think about it. Get on the mat, confront my food addiction and body image issues and forgive myself. That said, I am attending the Radical Forgiveness workshop today. I have no idea what to expect, so I ask the Universe to guide me to be open to the process. In an effort to heal past wounds, I have decided to blog about my yoga experience as it transforms me. I will tackle body image issues through yoga, and chronicle my journey. I love yoga, I have for years. I work towards living a yoga lifestyle. Now it is time to put my money where my mouth is and show up. So this is me, showing up and practicing radical forgiveness……Namaste